No more promiscuity
This is pretty TMI just to warn you, but read if you wish. When I first got my iPhone around last October or so, I downloaded the apps Jack’d and Grindr and thats when I became really active. I hooked up pretty much almost every week for a month or so when I started and I have to admit it was pretty awesome, I was on a roll. Not different people though lol… well three of them. Don’t get me wrong, when I started, I was really scared that I might have caught something even though I was always safe.
Nowadays though, I feel like I’ve grown out of it. From being active and from experiencing “mistakes,” I developed better judgments of people and I came to realize that the apps probably aren’t the places for me to look anymore. I think I’d much rather meet people in person like in a club or preferably get to know acquaintances, at least it’ll be more decent. But actually, I feel like I just want a serious relationship and give up all the promiscuity. After all, it’s been a couple months since I got any (other than a friend, shit that’s still bad…) and I don’t have the desire to hook up. I honestly think that if I were to get serious with anyone, I can be loyal and faithful. I know I’ve had a promiscuous past but I have a fine line between hooking up and having a serious relationship. Other than my fuck buddy/friends, I never wanted to hook up more than once with the same guy. The good thing with me having a relationship is that I like to take things slow and serious while making the perfect flow. I definitely won’t even get tempted with others and I’m saying it based on the fact that I’m picky, I take consequences seriously and I’d hate to see my relationship suffer all because of my stupidity. But most importantly, I hate seeing people get hurt especially someone I care about. I just don’t want to be alone anymore.